Sick as a.....Dog?!?

I always wondered where the term sick as a dog came from. So being the investigative person I am I looked it up. According to my sources** the term was first recorded in 1705, it is probably an attempt to give a good push to a strongly worded statement of physical unhappiness. It was attached to a dog, I would guess, because dogs often seem to have been connected to things that were considered unpleasant. Down the years they have had an incredibly bad press, (think of dog tired, dog’s breakfast, go to the dogs, dog Latin — big dictionaries have long entries about all the ways that dog has been used in a negative sense)...
I wasn't really satisfied with my findings I guess I figured I would bump into some elaborate story about a dog who had a rediculous amount of sicknesses and spread them around to people until he was totally healed or some thing. LOL...So why have I been pondering this expression lately, well because I have been sick as a dog lately. I rather not go into details but acouple of ignored health problems lead to my being in the hospital for two day last week with an infection attacking my blood. I was pumped with pain pills and antibiotics for a couple of days and sent of my not-so-merry way. So for the rest of the week and weekend I have have been recovering. I finally returned to class today after missing a couple of days and im starting to feel like the old me but the past week will not leave my memory any time soon. In the midst of everything else that has been going on I have neglected my health and greatly paid the price. Oh but there will be plenty more price to pay once these hospital bills darken my doorstep. Well on the brightside Wal-mart called me, eventhough I wasn't home at the time. I definately plan on calliong them back today, because I need a job horribly maybe then I can start paying my many many bills and random crap I need to pay for or off. Somewhere out there my silver lining is starting to twinkle. Just a little bit.

Sick as a person trying their hardest not to be sick,
Tay lin

Another Nother...

In the words of one of my besties, "If it aint one thing its another, and if it aint that its another nother." I have definately reached the "another nother". Some little highschooler's car and the back of mine collided today. Oh the joy I felt as I backed up and my little cousin said, "Someones behind you." I joyfully looked back just in time to see there car give my beautiful Bee's behind a french kiss. As i spewed a plethora of curses i got out of the car and exchange insurance information with the calm teenager. Why so calm you may ask? Because my car was barely scraped while the front of theres wasn't so lucky. They will probably get a nice check to fix there crunched car while my damn rates will sky rocket next year. Freakin great !!! I'll probably have to pay a nice lil chunk or change to the insurance company for their damn car. WHY THE HELL COULDN'T I JUST HAVE STAYED MY ASS IN BED!!!! Im tooo through. Well on the briteside my moms coming intown to day and I'm pickeing her up from the airport. Yaaaay me. lol Naw seriously I've been missing her since I left Columbus 2 months ago. This should be a interesting couple of days.

Fuming and Furious,
Tay lin

Troubled

If you were to bump into me on the streets a couple of weeks ago you would have witnessed the epitome of one of the happiest black women in New Orleans. If you bumped into me now...not so much. (In the words of my mom) Things are spiraling down around me fast, so much so that I feel like I don't have the stregnth to try to stop it. My money is disappearing into thin air, along with my relationship, and my motivation. Bottom line I need a job, it's so much easier said then done. It seems as though everything I want to do in life is laughing in my face and walking away. My dreams, aspirations, and plans just spitting at me and giving me a look of uttmost disgust and repulsion. I am litarally sick to my stomach. One of the people who I love the most is unconsciously pushing me away. And if I were to say inything to let him know of his wrong doing his display of ignorance is replaced with anger, something that I can not and will not tolerate. I demand respect, even from those who are ignorant to the fact that they are not giving it to me. Point, blank, period. But when all is said and done love outweighs alot of cons. And here I am with one hand stretched out as wide as possible, shaking and flicking trying to let go while the other holds on with a grip past death, digging nails and pulsating forward with every slip trying to hold on.
All I can do is put my face in my hands. Stop, trying to figure out where the money is going, and work on getting more. Stop trying to fix him and let God fix him. Stop stressing and pray. Im on the tip of the cliff, with my toes curved over the edge crumbling away the dirt and rocks that wish to be free from the dry ledge listening to the pebbles topple down into the abyss of hoplessness. And all I can do is put my face in my hands, take a deep breathe, and step back.

Trying Again,
Tay Lin

M.I.A.

Ok, go ahead and say it.....I know, I know, Where the hell have I been right? Honestly, I really don't know whose asking this question because I don't know who actually reads my blog. But if there is one lonely soul out there who has stopped by to see if I have put my blogging cap back on, well here I am. Of course I'm going to use the excuse of just too much crap going on to sitdown and blog. But my life is slowing down a bit. So I guess I'll start with the top 5 craziest things that has happened to me since I last posted.

1. Car Accident
2.$$$
3.New School
4.Car
5.Back in New Orleans

Yeah some old fool ran a stop sign and caused a chain of events that ended with my forehead crashing into the rearveiw mirror of my friends car during my pre-summer vacation in Ft.Walton, Florida. Yeah, I walked away from that adventure with seven stitches on my forehead and a beautiful scar to show off for the rest of my life. But on the bright side I turned that walk into a run with a nice cash settlement. But sadly it was not enough to pay off my balance that I still owed FAMU. I had no one to cosign for a loan and it was not looking good. In the end everything works out eventhough it may not be as planned. So I grabbed all of my things and moved back to New Orleans. Squeezed into a community college and took a little chunk of my money and bought a 2000 Nissan Xterra that happens to be a beautiful bright yellow.
So thats my recent life in a nutshell, me just trying to make it through and eventually get my behind back to FAMU. My head is still slightly spinning but eventually I'll get over it, and try my heardest not to be M.I.A any more, atleast not in the blogging world.

Coming out of hiding,
Tay Lin

Famuuuu, Famuuuu, Fam-got-damn-uu, Alright Alright Alright!!!!

I know I haven't posted a good 'ol blog in a while but there is a very good reason.......COLLEGE SUCKS BIG HAIRY ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why I hate College:
-The Dummy Factory (also known as the Financial Aid office)
-The Shitdexo (The campus caf food provided by Sodexho Food Services)
-Mr./Mrs. I know Alot But I don't Teach (Professors)
-Fuck Aid Foolish Stupid Asses (Fafsa)
-Ms. I Will Walk Around This Hilly Ass Campus All Day With Stilletos And Look At You Stupid (Females)
-Mr. I will Fuck You If You Have A Pretty Face And A Cat...My Bad, Just A Cat
(Males)
-The We Are Sophisticated and Intellegent Niggas Who Won't Think Twice About Running A Train On Your Drunk Ass Brotherhood(Fraternities)
-The We Too Damn Worried About What The Other Bitch Is Doin To Give A Shit About Sisterhood Sisterhood(Sororities)
-Not Having a car
-Not having any money
-Famu's abundant Financial Problem's
-The fact that Famu is cutting 90% of it's summer courses
-The fact that all my books and supplies for class equal up to over $600 dollars
-The fact that we can only use oure flex bucks in the crappy places on campus while FSU can use theirs damn near eveywhere
-OH MY GOD THE DORMS!!!!!!!!
~Mold in the A/C...No Hot Water...No Tissue...Broken Windows...Crazy RD...No Cable (wich we are paying for)...Bugs...Outrages fines for dumb shit...Dumbass room inspections...non co-ed...WRON WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!!!!!!




WHEEW!!!! Okay ladies and gentlemen that felt good to get out.....Soooooo I don't really hate college but it aint cherry blossoms right now ya feel me. Sometimes a girl just needs some TLC from here school. Just a little bit.


Setting This Establishment On Fire,
Tay Lin

Man I'm Chillin

Man I know its been a super long time since I put my blogging cap on but I didn't realize how super crazy/busy/psychotic college life is. There just isn't enough time in the day. Or night for that matter.
Well basically I'm rolling with the flow but staying on top of my game. Grades are pretty good, people are pretty good. Life is basically major drama free. But I must admit I am home/momsick as all hell. Thanksgiving can't come fast enough. I miss everything and everybody. There are a couple of things I need to jump on the horse with but I'll be okay.
As for my father...well he is under the dog house, and he can't stop spewing bullshit to save his life. But hey it is what it is. My roomate and I get along pretty well...I mean we're basically on two separate planets but we're cool.
Tragically FAMU can't win a football game to save their life either. I just pray to God that we win homecoming. But hey.....Go Rattlers!!! lol.
Well right now I'm very hungry (lol) like most college student are, I just wanted to stop by and fill you guys in so siyanara.

Chillin lika Villian
Taylin

Lies I Tell Ya...All Lies!!!!!

When I was a young child I had this stupid conclusion in my head that lying would make certian situations turn out better, as I got older I learned that that was absolutely positively wrong. But sometimes that stupid little girl creeps up on me and I make the mistake of telling a lie to get out of a situation or having to deal with a consequence. Well I lied to someone I care about deeply and I felt like the largest accumilation of shit in the world afterwords. I knew this person knew I was lying so that made it 100 times worse. I basically felt like digging a whole half way to china and jumping in it. In the end all I could say was that I was sorry but sometimes even the person who is saying they're sorry knows that it isn't enough. So all I can do is work on myself, try to banish that stupid little girl all together, because the feeling that I'm feeling right now is not worth it. It never was.

Sad b-day girl,
Tay Lin

I love my FAM fam!!!

3rd Day at FAMU
Freshman Week

OMG So much to say....I flew to Tallhassee, Fl with three heavy ass suitcases and rode a taxi all the way to campus BY MYSELF.... Why? You ask? Well because my father's truck broke down...Yep completely stopped a day before he was supposed to take me and my things to FAMU...Sucks monkey butt doesn't it.... Well long story short I made it here and my things will be brought up by my father Saturday( Hopefully). I have MANY things to say about this whole little "situation" but i would be typing until I graduated. So we'll leave it at...I'm here. So how about we make this easy and go over some points I'm sure you wanna know about:

Campus?
Campus is beautiful...It's actually better then I thought it would be...There are lots of nice places to chill(even a bowling ally) There is also this main part of campus everybody hangs out at called the set its always poppin there

My Dorm room/hall:
Wheatley hall is not the best of them all but its definately not the worst its basically pretty clean (except for at night when the bugs come out eeekkk!). The girls in the hall are nice and everbody speaks. My room is great its bigger then I thought it would be and me and my roomate have just enough space to not have to kill eachother over lol. So i think I'll be okay.

My Roomate:
My roomate (we'll call here Lilbit) is really sweet and nice. But its so funny to see us walking together because she is 3 times smaller then me(seriously i can see right over her head lol). But she is cool and she shares lol which is great for me since I have barely anything until next week. So so far so good...I'll keep you up dated on how we get along.

People?
Again EVERYONE is sooo friendly...I think its because its the beginning of the year and everybody is happy to be here hopefully it will last...

Classes?
I don't know my schedule yet but I'll keep ya posted.

Food?
I have a pretty cool meal plan 12 meals a week(2 meals Mon-Fri 1 meal Sat-Sun) and $225 dollars in Flex bucks wich i can use a campus pizzahut , KFC etc... So I think I'll be pretty good with that one...There is a cafe (buffet) and other stuff so I'm cool with that



So thats a lil run thru for you I'm makin it through sofar enjoying lil parties and things like that its really fun watching the frats and Sororities stepping through the crowds at the parties...But of course ever good thing has a dark spot and mine is Financial Aid...Im workin on it though but I am gonna need a BIG LOAN (lol) to halp me out...I am definately scholarship hunting hard for next fall cause this money shit is rediculous
But I will keep yall posted on all the happenings

Takin it all in,
Tay Lin