Fine Dinning

I sat in the caf this morning at a two person table enjoying brunch by myself. Not that many of my friends are Saturday morning people hence the independence from company. But honestly I didn't mind. I looked around and observed the people around me, and I noticed 85% of the people who were also enjoying there brunches were either with a companion or a group of people. Those who were left were like me, or on a cell phone. I then began to wonder what is the problem with eating by yourself? There has been platy of times when I am in the caf in the morning and someone who I know walks pass, says hi, and then gives me a sad face, "Awww you by yourself?" I smile and say yeah, like sooo. I mean i really have no problem with it at all, I like to observe people in silence and enjoy my gross food. I like to listen to people's loud conversations and enjoy the fact that they're not at the table with me spitting all in my food. Some times i like to read our campus newspaper (The Famuan), or a book, without having to hear one of my friends ramble on about their problems, boyfriend, mess, or anything of the sort. Sometimes a friend of mine will see me in my breakfast solitude and decide to invite themselves to sit at my table. I look up and they smile so big as if they have cured me of leprosy.
But really what is the big deal. Do people feel like an outcast by them selves? As if eating alone automatically spells "I have no friends". Or is it the "Clique Factor" that now has been dragged out of high school society and place in a collegiate surrounding. And it's not just a girl thing, it's actually more common with guys. You never see them in the caf with out there goons. Which ironically makes it harder to get girls, in my opinion. who wants to walk up to a mob of continuously horny guys. good luck with that. Well as for me I'm fine with how I dine. I hope people get better at being more comfortable being with themselves. You gotta learn that before you can be comfortable with anybody else.

Loner Luncher,
Tay Lin

March Madness

I'm sitting in the library waiting for this hour to zoom by so I can sprint (well, really just walk at a fast pace.) to the caf and hastily devour whatever crappy food they have to offer. As my stomach growles I thought back to my thoughts when I woke up this morning. It is March I have barely a month and a half left of my firt year in college. Socially it was everything I hoped for but academically and financially mysel;f and the school could have done alot better. I know next year I will do alot better but, sometimes I think to myself do I want a next year, in Tallahassee. Now don't get me wrong, I love FAMU the people I have met and the experiences I've had I will never forget. Sometimes I just wanna to go to a culinary arts school and open a restaurant. I think that it's probably just a scapegoat because I know right now that would be alot easier (and cheaper) to do. Eventhough I pretty much know I'm never going to actually do that. It would kinda be nice (and cheaper).
My last blog was just a culmination of frustrations and a exxageration of a couple of things but is the frustration really worth it? Who know's? I know alot of this is PMS talking so plz don't leave comments about how I should follow my dream of being a chef lol. Because I'd really rather be a marine biologist. But I'm starting to think that would be a big hill to climb.....at FAMU.

Contemplating Carefully,
Tay Lin

Famuuuu, Famuuuu, Fam-got-damn-uu, Alright Alright Alright!!!!

I know I haven't posted a good 'ol blog in a while but there is a very good reason.......COLLEGE SUCKS BIG HAIRY ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why I hate College:
-The Dummy Factory (also known as the Financial Aid office)
-The Shitdexo (The campus caf food provided by Sodexho Food Services)
-Mr./Mrs. I know Alot But I don't Teach (Professors)
-Fuck Aid Foolish Stupid Asses (Fafsa)
-Ms. I Will Walk Around This Hilly Ass Campus All Day With Stilletos And Look At You Stupid (Females)
-Mr. I will Fuck You If You Have A Pretty Face And A Cat...My Bad, Just A Cat
(Males)
-The We Are Sophisticated and Intellegent Niggas Who Won't Think Twice About Running A Train On Your Drunk Ass Brotherhood(Fraternities)
-The We Too Damn Worried About What The Other Bitch Is Doin To Give A Shit About Sisterhood Sisterhood(Sororities)
-Not Having a car
-Not having any money
-Famu's abundant Financial Problem's
-The fact that Famu is cutting 90% of it's summer courses
-The fact that all my books and supplies for class equal up to over $600 dollars
-The fact that we can only use oure flex bucks in the crappy places on campus while FSU can use theirs damn near eveywhere
-OH MY GOD THE DORMS!!!!!!!!
~Mold in the A/C...No Hot Water...No Tissue...Broken Windows...Crazy RD...No Cable (wich we are paying for)...Bugs...Outrages fines for dumb shit...Dumbass room inspections...non co-ed...WRON WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!!!!!!




WHEEW!!!! Okay ladies and gentlemen that felt good to get out.....Soooooo I don't really hate college but it aint cherry blossoms right now ya feel me. Sometimes a girl just needs some TLC from here school. Just a little bit.


Setting This Establishment On Fire,
Tay Lin

Man I'm Chillin

Man I know its been a super long time since I put my blogging cap on but I didn't realize how super crazy/busy/psychotic college life is. There just isn't enough time in the day. Or night for that matter.
Well basically I'm rolling with the flow but staying on top of my game. Grades are pretty good, people are pretty good. Life is basically major drama free. But I must admit I am home/momsick as all hell. Thanksgiving can't come fast enough. I miss everything and everybody. There are a couple of things I need to jump on the horse with but I'll be okay.
As for my father...well he is under the dog house, and he can't stop spewing bullshit to save his life. But hey it is what it is. My roomate and I get along pretty well...I mean we're basically on two separate planets but we're cool.
Tragically FAMU can't win a football game to save their life either. I just pray to God that we win homecoming. But hey.....Go Rattlers!!! lol.
Well right now I'm very hungry (lol) like most college student are, I just wanted to stop by and fill you guys in so siyanara.

Chillin lika Villian
Taylin

I'm sooo 18

Okay I have to dedicate this short post to one of the best events in a young persons life. I'M FREAKING 18!!!!!! Finally it has happened ya'll. It just feels good to say it ....type it whatever. So ya'll know this weekend is going down especially if we win our game against Howard. Sheeet! lol but naw for real I'm just sooo friggin happy lol. I just had to share it with ya'll.

Jumping up and down in circles,
Tay Lin

Lies I Tell Ya...All Lies!!!!!

When I was a young child I had this stupid conclusion in my head that lying would make certian situations turn out better, as I got older I learned that that was absolutely positively wrong. But sometimes that stupid little girl creeps up on me and I make the mistake of telling a lie to get out of a situation or having to deal with a consequence. Well I lied to someone I care about deeply and I felt like the largest accumilation of shit in the world afterwords. I knew this person knew I was lying so that made it 100 times worse. I basically felt like digging a whole half way to china and jumping in it. In the end all I could say was that I was sorry but sometimes even the person who is saying they're sorry knows that it isn't enough. So all I can do is work on myself, try to banish that stupid little girl all together, because the feeling that I'm feeling right now is not worth it. It never was.

Sad b-day girl,
Tay Lin

Momsick

First Week of Classes at Famu
Day 13

Okay ya'll I'll brief you on my first week of classes a lil later but Ihave to get this out of the way first.

This morning I was chillen in my bed after a loong night of partying and my friend was chillen in my room on here laptop. While I lay pondering my day with my eyes closed she started to blast a cd that i was pretty familiar with, Stone Love by the artist Angie Stone. The music automatically made me think about another Angie in my life...my mommy. Yall I'm finally sayin it....I MISS MY MOMMA!!! I miss cryin laughing with her, I miss cruising on the street listing to music (i.e. Angie Stone), I miss laughing at or getting freaked out by weird ohio people, I miss cooking for her (even If it wasn't exactly what she wanted), I miss sleeping in her GREAT bed, I miss watching T.V. with her, I miss watching bootlegs with her, I miss going to Easton mall with her and laughing at the little whit kids, I miss soo much about my mom I could go on forever I'm actually not really homesick but I'm definately Momsick. So again I will fill yall in on my classes later but i had to get that out. Mommy I'm coming home! Well in my mind.

Missing Mommy,
Taylin